Anonymous asked:
get a tatoo of it in the same place as a reminder of it. try and see the change as growth.
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Pros and cons of drinking. Alone.
Pros:
- I’m numb. Mostly. Still feeling the aching in my body, but too numb to care and too numb to even notice (most of the time).
- I can occasionally just leave my body, without any repercussions when I come back a few minutes later.
- Emotions come in waves. Sometimes small waves, passing by and quickly leaving. Sometimes big waves. Overpowering. Overwhelming. Taking over everything, leaving me gasping for air and just hoping it passes without dragging me out to sea. But eventually passing again.
- The world is spinning.
Cons:
- I have to pee. A lot. Repeatedly. Constantly.
- I’ll have a headache tomorrow. Or later today. It will come, eventually. It will suck. Tomorrow will suck.
- Emotions come in waves. Sometimes small waves, passing by and quickly leaving. Sometimes big waves. Overpowering. Overwhelming. Taking over everything, leaving me gasping for air and just hoping it passes without dragging me out to sea. But eventually passing again.
- The world is spinning.
I’ve considered it, and might do it one day. But I’m not ready to get any tattoos yet, I’m still too indecisive and impulsive. Before I get any tattoos I need to be 100% sure of what and where I want it.
But thank you for the advice <3
There’s something cathartic, cleansing in a sense, about sitting outside when it’s just below freezing temperature. The whole world bleached, pale and slow with snow. Listening to the distant sounds of traffic. Smoking a cigarette. Just breathing. In and out. Alone.